Err, everyone else is doing it, so why can't I? :D

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Things were bad; nothing seemed to be working out. I was piled up with homework, my girlfriend was mad at me, and it was two in the morning. I had school tomorrow, and I would probably fall asleep in class again. Not that it mattered, I was failing everything anyway, so I probably didn't have a chance for redemption.

As I sat there, staring at my math book with blurry vision, the weight in my stomach seemed to get a little heavier when I realized I had missed band practice again. The guys probably didn't expect me anymore, though. I hadn't made it to the last few, and they told me they were auditioning new singers.

I closed my book and just stared at my knees for a while. Why did life have to be so complicated? Why didn't I have time for anything? I always tell myself I'm going shape up; I always promise myself that I'll do better, but it never happens.

With a sigh, I looked through my slightly open window. I needed to clear my head.

I got up quietly, and walked down the hall to the front door. Listening attentively for sounds from my parent's bedroom, I unlocked the door and slipped through a small crack, closing it softly behind me.

It was fall, and cool. A slight breeze rustled the leaves at my feet, and, enjoying the soft crunch of my footsteps, I walked around the house and into my backyard. It was a full moon, but there were clouds, so everything had a soft gray lighting. A slight fog poked its icy fingers through the holes in my favorite hoodie and I shivered slightly. The weight in my stomach was gone and long forgotten, along with reality.

I settled down next to a large willow tree and leaned against the trunk, wrapping my arms around my knees. Peering into the deep forest behind my house, I realized I could stay in that moment forever.

A part of me never left.